I think I can, maybe, no, yes, why? It is my dream!

By now I had several episodes where I question why I am here for this long. The issue is not whether I can do this or not but why. I am living in this world that I was longing while I was working crazy hours  longing for the meaning of my contribution to my existence. While on this journey I have met so many different people. Different perspectives, different stances on so many different aspects of life. Of course different backgrounds which makes it so refreshing. It is this refreshment that sometimes makes me question the why of this journey. I remember telling my mother that what has been the hardest aspect of this tour is the start. Grabbing that 96 pound bicycle bag and pushing it through Penn Station is when I realized; ” This is real, there is not turning back”. That was over 50 days ago and the worries and concerns about where I am going to sleep or my next meal keep diminishing. I have become tempered by the daily circumstances that surround me. The why comes from hearing people talk about the news and what is going on in the world. What is current? Is it what CNN or FOX tells us? Many of us seeing to think so. I for one know a little better but I still have this little why creeping behind me. I have posted on Facebook about how negativity can creep up and wreck havoc  on what you feel is important in life. I talk to my other half as much as I can and I have found myself frustrated with her because she is dealing with the parallels of our life back home while I am here meeting amazing people and having these amazing experiences that not even the physical exertion can negate. These are the times when I am back down from the mountain that I can look back and see that is not the last mountain that I am going to have to climb. In the next 60 days or less this journey will be over and I will have such a hard time trying to remember everything while thinking about it really hard. I find that when I am day dreaming , is when I remember and that is when I go back o living and feeling those breaths giving life. I guess I will wait a little while longer to see if the why is answered but if not, I have to make another journey. Do not worry sweet heart! I will make sure the yard and that ‘Honey to do list’ gets completed and thank you for loving me like you do and allowing me this amazing experience. I am forever grateful to you.